Wednesday, June 8, 2011

The Beginning of the End

5 Years Ago.  I miss being this skinny AND my string of pearls

In just 3 WEEKS, I will begin the last year of my twenties!  I'm a surprise bag of mixed emotions.  I go from embracing it and wanting the hubsters to take me out with friends to celebrate and then I sit back and think about where the time went and what I've done with myself for the past almost decade.

I even find myself watching and admiring the older women at my church, many of whom bring their grandchildren with them, and I am inspired.  These women are youthful, alway put together, and just full of life and energy, which is exactly how I want to be when I am their age.  I sometimes find myself daydreaming about being a grandmother myself....I KNOW, it's crazy, to say the least.  I just always want to know what I will be doing and look like NEXT, which shouldn't be my concern.

Throughout highschool, I had this vision for my future, and "no" I did not consult God.  I didn't even know I had to do that.  But anywho...I had a vision of myself as this high-powered business woman, who made lot's of money.  So much money that I was going to take 20-30 family and friends on a world-wide cruise vacation, all expenses paid.  Hey guys, I'm still working on it!  Not only was I going to be very successful in my career, but according to my plan, I was supposed to get married around 28 and start having kids at 30, you know so I could have time to work, make money and be successful.  It's just hilariously funny to me that my life is no where near this vision that I'd concocted in my head so many years ago.  Thank God!

Thank God that even when I was bent on sabotaging His plan, He loved me enough to pick me back up and set me on the correct path.  I'm just so thankful for His mercy and grace, because without it, I'm sure I'd be destitute.

The reality is that I'm not business-savvy, I can't think on my feet, I'm not good with impressing others, I don't want an MBA, and I could go on.  He knew this about me when He created me in my mother's womb, before I even knew it about myself.

Now that this post has gone in a totally different direction than planned, I'm going to wrap it up by saying I am excited for my birthday to come this year, because it's just one more reminder of God's faithfulness.  In a world full of evil and corruption; I need those reminders.


  1. These are my thoughts at times and I'm reminded that although my plans may look, sound good, and may even turn out ok??, HIS plan is perfect and isn't determined by outside sources or our imagination....THank You for another reminder.

  2. SO glad you looked to Him and He is leading you now! All ages have their own set of ups and downs. I found I did most of my stupid stuff in my 20's. You are wiser now, hallelujah!

  3. It is so refreshing to know that I am not alone! I've come to this conclusion this year that the plans I had for myself were not the plans God had for me and your right it's really funny lol. I'm almost 25 and G Golly I'm no where near the path I had set for myself! His plan for me is better than the one I had lol If I don't post on your Birthday I'd like to wish you a very Happy Birthday and I hope that you enjoy it :)

  4. I'm so happy this post was able to encourage you ladies!

    @Jeanette- I am much wiser now, and I'm ready for the ups and downs of every age (at least I think so). LOL!

    @Vibrant1- Thanks for the birthday well wishes. His plan is always the best. I wish I knew how to seek Him when I was younger. But that's okay, I'm on track now!


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